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May. 31st, 2008 | 05:00 am

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Why do I have to have one?

Feb. 26th, 2008 | 06:34 pm
location: coffee shop
mood: optimistic optimistic

Yeah, so I am still not really "working".   Sure I have private clients, Yay for them! But man, I can't stand how each city feels they can extort moneys from hard working massage therapists!!  sheesh!  Anyhoo, I have a test on the 5th and then (after I pass the test) I will be able to work!  Which my first day will be that weekend on the 8th.  Whew!

Life living with a male who is more than just a friend/roommate/bud is no longer going through such a teething period.  Things do change when people move in together, and it is never how you might think will change.  The way people interact with each other becomes so much less formal.  The desire and interaction is no longer furtive and hungry, but relaxed and laisez faire (bad spelling).  Romance becomes less important and doing the dishes more so.  As long as intimacy isn't forgotten, then the relationship is a winner!  I was particularly fascinated with the way language changed between us.  It was part of the familiarity and a comfortable feeling to let down the front of "keeping a good appearance/mood" to hey, I have you, and this is what I don't like so change what you do to make me happy.  I was ok with that up to a point, but then I found I needed to find my own voice.  I am glad that I have a place to speak up and express myself and my feelings.  Sometimes it takes me a while to figure out what is going on in my head and heart.  Especially when pain is involved.  I don't want to react, but want to make sure what I am feeling is justified and not an emotional response that is immature with no reason for it.  I had a past relationship that I whined a lot in, and have learned to stop whining about everything and evaluate what I am feeling and why.  I feel better about not complaining all the time and only bringing up issues that pertinant.  damn my spelling!!! arrrggghhhhh ok, I gotta go home.  bye

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Graduation!!!

Dec. 18th, 2007 | 05:40 pm
location: school (for not much longer)
mood: enthralled enthralled

 Yup, I is gradumacatin! yay!!  Which means, I must now start charging more for my services as a matter of pride.  I did the work, and my clients can pay for it! :)  Anyhoo, life is getting better, living with boyfriend easier and easier each day.  I would say that the shock of living with another is wearing away and the bliss is settling in.  Holidays are not yet over, which reminds me to send some more gifts off even though they will get there late (bwahahahaha).  Now all I have to do is make sure I have a feeder for my cat while I visit my man's family in WA state.  I am super excited about that too!  Oh, and then I need to get a job. :(   Reality will rear its ugly head, but hell, I enjoy my chosen career, so it won't be that bad! yay!!!  well thats all folks.

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Belinda, to you.

Nov. 12th, 2007 | 11:16 am
location: home
mood: contemplative contemplative

This last weekend a special person died at a very early age.  28 is too young to die, but she did amazing things in music before she went.  Her name is Belinda.  She left her mother Sharon and brother Jonathan.  Her friends are too many to name.  It is true that some people burn brightly and the flame goes out early and I would say this was true of Belinda.  I did not know her well, only meeting her recently, but her impact on others was obvious to see on the faces of those around her.

Belinda, you will be missed and your life will be celebrated.  May your path be bright and peaceful.


To those left behind, take care of yourselves!  Belinda would want you to celebrate her and your own talent, and to watch your health.

Namaste 

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Fri night and other events

Oct. 16th, 2007 | 05:18 pm
location: school
mood: loved loved
music: "Begattin ..."

 Well, I thought this might be fun?
sacred chant
 
Omadawn Yoga Studio
Other wise a movie could be nice too?

Feelin sad the beginning of each week.  I have now realized that it is because I don't want to spend any time away from my man.  Silly because I am going to see him soon enough, but being in love is like that.  This last weekend was very good.  I can have fun and enjoy being with him even if I am not "knowing" him! lol  "Begattin, Begattin, they were all Begattin..."  yeah, and I wanna a big dog ...  with lots of energy and loves!!! (which can also translate into lots of slobber, but what-ever!)  *giggles*  Ok, I am wiling to wait till we have a big yard (goes without saying)  just have to say that I do want a large lap dog (already have the lap-boyfriend! tee hee)  anyhoo, off to do something else besides type!

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umm....wow

Oct. 8th, 2007 | 05:42 pm
location: school
mood: naughty naughty
music: "cause I'm a Blond, yeah, yeah"

Once again I feel like the luckiest woman alive.  nuff said.

school, yay, learn or something....  yeah, luckiest woman.  oh, nuff said?

Kinda wierd feeling so happy, ready for the future, and willing!  I feel nothing holding me back.  Even what little fear I have doesn't hold me back, just spices things up.  ;)

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I dunno

Oct. 3rd, 2007 | 04:59 pm
location: school
mood: blah blah
music: static

Well, I haven't posted in a long time either.  Probably cause I am feeling so well about life.  I will admit that I am in a slightly depressed area right now.  Comes and goes, so I live with it.  I don't know why, but I feel like I want more attention and I understand how my love is feeling lots of stress and I want to be there for him.  I AM here for him, I just want hugs.  Darn it I hate missing him!  Sheesh, we aren't even living together yet!!!  egads, I have issues, with potatoes, cheeze, and chocolate! (in that I am cravin!)  ok, kinda random too! yay!  I have used the exclamation mark way tooooooooo much, darn.   (snorting)  so yeah, dulldrums, bought new clothes (ok, 2 shirts and 2 pants that were cheap and cute)  I like shopping when depressed.  well, luvs and lata!

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relax

Sep. 18th, 2007 | 01:34 pm
location: at Marq's puter
mood: chipper chipper

I am so happy to say that I will not be working in 2 weeks, despite the desire to tell my current employer to fuck themselves.  I am a good person and will give them 2 weeks to look for a replacement, as if I could be replaced! bwwaahahahaha.  wait, does that warrant an evil laugh?  well it does now!! bwwwuaahahahahahaaa!!  maybe giddy is a good description of my state of being in seeing a proverbial light at the end of the dank, moldy, tunnel.  ok, lata!

luvs

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does there have to be one?

Aug. 30th, 2007 | 07:00 pm
mood: giggly giggly

 Wow.    Yup, wow.  What is there to say?  I am in love, have lots of friends to care about and who actually care about me (sorry to all who I can't spend time with :-{ .  )    I just wish I had more energy and time (oh doesn't time come to those who wait? or some wierd thing like that?)  Anyhoo, I am so looking forward to this weekend!!  time with my boyfriend (gods I looooooooooove to say that!) and some time with friends (not enough)  I am just going to miss spending time with my cat.  :-(    Life is funny, tends to send you what you need, and even stuff you want!  lots of cheese ... um ... I meant .. a wonderful full life! yeah thats it!  (cheese :-) ) Man I hate it that you can't do normal smiley faces in () sheesh.  Ok, enough rambling, I guess I should get back to class? or something? (giggle)

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for your reading pleasure (i hope)

Aug. 20th, 2007 | 09:32 pm
location: class
mood: creative creative

poetry written before:

Choosing When

 

Time is a Trampoline

On which we jump to a basket

That is filled by our selves

With memories, dreams, and days

We can decide our reality

With every bounce.

FRONT WALK TO NO-WHERE

(LESSON IN TIME)

 

What did you lead visitors feet too?

The porch of a manor grand

Or the stoop poor as the fisherman

                        and his kin?

Has anyone else wondered

Pointed thoughts and conjectures.

Were you, old front walk

                        created to puzzle me?

Or the project never finished

                        statement of youth

History or future meant

                        beats the hell out of me

One thing for sure, stop I did,

                        looked, wondered and moved on.

Lil "nymph"

Sex. My body and sex.

Touched teased licked kissed

Nibble bite pinch scratch.

Holes filled with toungue and fingers.

Stroke my clit, dip into my wetness

Rub my crotch and ass.

Tease my nipples, nibble and bite

Tease me with a little fuck.

Kiss me with your tongue

Make me gasp, your tongue my tongue.

Caress me down, reach my hole.

Again spread the wet juice

From all to clit and back

Softly. Fingers inside pound me.

Build pressure until I beg.

Make me cum please!

Then do it again.

MY REALITY

Every night I lay down in a bower,

Gauzy panels the stuff of fantasy,

Invisible arms cradle me

And stars play with my dreams.

Softness, like in the touch of young skin,

Weightless warmth sooths.

Sitting in the center knowing

The monsters are locked away underneath.

This is where the fairys sleep,

Here in my bedroom keep.

 

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